Its a failure again. I dint even finish my blog that I wrote before my contract started 6 months ago. And now, I start to write this again because I feel helpless and I don't want too many people to know but I wanna share it.

I feel really good working on a ship. Freedom, a lot of freedom. But recently, a news came from my family that makes me feel that working in the ship is a very bad choice. My granny was diagnose with leukemia. I m 1 of the family and i cant do anything, to take care of her, and just to see her. I really want to go back now, and at least just look at her, talk to her, and i wanna take care of her. I dunno what to do now, as i don't think i cant go back except if i resign..... all i can do now is pray.